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|viking-punk (profile) wrote, |
on 9-24-2003 at 4:08pm
|Current mood: stressed
Music: thinking of evanescence in my head
Subject: damn life...
|i'm freaking out bout the dumbest things right now...I JUST DON'T WANT TO GROW UP...i'm tired of thinking bout the future...here's what's going on in my stupid little head of mine:
my relationship with parents
finding better work (that actually pays ;) )
i think that's about it...i'll only go into detail with one...i'm clueless as to why i think some of those things to be honest...
college: i'm starting to fill out applications for them...& i'm not sure if i really want to go to CHC...or college at all for that matter...i just don't know & i'm scared of it again...
i'm just not ready for anything right now...i'm stressed with that stupid moving show for band...& getting into an argument with joey...which i sometimes feel like i have to bring up something with him so he can understand me...but i'm not gonna try with that...sometimes i think that things are going bad with us...& if it starts to i don't know what to do...i'm clueless as to what i could do to fix things...sometimes i don't even know there is a problem...& it's usually me...*sigh*...i'm so lost right now...it's not even really close to funny...
sometimes i think bout if i'm not with joey...i think i'd be by myself...& it's not so much of a matter that no one would ever love me again...but i think i'd just be too emotionally drained & hurt...i hope this one works...& for good...somehow i keep thinking it's breaking apart...little by little...
& i don't know what to do anymore...with anything at all...