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|fading-away (profile) wrote, |
on 11-14-2003 at 10:21am
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Music: 3 Libras, by A Perfect Circle
Subject: So tired of this all
|Do you ever get that feeling? When you wake up in the morning, your mind kinda blank, kinda optimistic. "Hm, wonder what's up today?" And then a rush of... of... of that feeling just overwhelms you; life seems so pointless of all a sudden, it's all the same, why bother? And you end up feeling lethargic all day. Mm, absolutely hate that.
I thought life couldn't get more dramatic. But noo, I have to make up for years and years of an uneventful life in one happy week. ;_; Weep for me; I'd weep for you. Hehe. So. I got into my first real fight with a very close friend of mine: he's pissed off at me because I took a joke/certain topic too far (that should be the main reason, otherwise I'm clueless). Shit, I know what I did wrong, and I know what I should do, but actually doing it? I hate confrontation, sue me. -bites lip- Remember that friend from the bus ride, the sexual thing? That's him! One of the few friends I actually really trust.
I hate it; I hate that we're not talking to each other. I hate it that we're avoiding each other; I hate it that I can't laugh with him or tease him or hug him and call him my lil bro. My God. I really should apologize, but something's holding me back. Stupid fear-of-confrontation.