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caffeinatedjazz (profile) wrote,
on 12-18-2003 at 1:57am
Current mood: ugh.
Music: pearl jam - last kiss
Subject: stagefright
i hate this feeling.

i rarely play live, but when i do it's always the same.

tonight i performed a jazzed up arrangement of silent night (2 guitars, piano, bass, 3 violins, 2 flues) in a christmas assembly type thing for parents. jazz band, chamber orchestra, choirs, and a capella group all from the school.

the song was mostly just lots of held roots/thirds/fifths and walking between changes and fills and stuff. and i totally nailed it.

but anyways. every performance. i just shake. like... my whole body just tremors and i can't stop it. and then my stomach starts twisting on itself and about 15-20 minutes after the performance i'll find myself in the bathroom either puking or crapping my brains out. it doesn't even matter what i ate, it's comin out one way or the other. too much info? fuck you. >:(

guh.

natalie's home. i need to see her "asap"

bari said i have to see her and kate so i can profess my love to kate.

i want to hang with ned and smoke and rant. not even rant just talk. get shit out.

sara and julie. *fyung*

alex suguiera is a fucking nutcase.
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