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|dazed (profile) wrote, |
on 5-6-2004 at 8:49pm
|Current mood: depressed
Subject: what you want. You can not have.
|Sitting here, feeling down. I was thinking that I shouldn't be sad just because I don't see bryan and then it hit me. I'm not sad because of him, I feel like this because I'm not happy with my life right now.
All I've been thinking is school. I hate it. I need to find a career. One that I will love and won't want to shoot myself evertime I get up in the morning because this really sucks.
It actually got kinda fun today. Not having to work and listen to lectures. Just have fun conversations with some teachers. Only a few weeks left and I'm done for over 3 months. Then it's my last year. I'll be 18 and be able to make my own rules.
I learned yesturday that my brother went behind my back and made a deal with my grandma to buy her house. So now I am fucked. I'm going to move away from here. Leave everything behind (except my blue blanky) and say fuck it.
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