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|alwaysfalling (profile) wrote, |
on 5-6-2004 at 11:11pm
|Current mood: bored
Music: third eye blind - semi-charmed life
|Sophomore year is coming to an end, 15 more days of school left. It makes me go through a whole bunch of different emotions. At first, I'm happy... 2 years left, we are half way done and I'm so very satisfied with the past two years. Then, I wonder about those people leaving and become saddened. Those people leaving, they aren't just those friends... the ones leaving are my family. Briana, JB, and Ashley Cline. My memories from my teenage life so far come from them mostly. Briana... she's my sister, the one that became my friend in Ms.Barbose's class in 6th grade, she's the first one that took in my funky personality. We both have learned so much from each other and have been through so much together. I believe though that our friendship is able to with stand anything. I know 5 years from now when she is cheering in college, I'm going to go and see her and cheer her on. Then there is JB... that boy that gave me my first kiss, let me know that is fun to be friends with boys, he's leaving and going to grow up and be such a wonderful man and person, he tells me not to worry though because he will always come down to my house and visit me. Lastly, there is Ashley Cline, that girl that became one of my best friends in school during the past year, the one I have experienced so much with, I'm scared to see her go, I will miss everything that she has to offer. I can't wait to be able to visit her in Tally though. I like the person I have become with the help of these people and others.
I miss spending time with my family. My older cousin still isn't talking to me and she just moved back to her home in North Florida and is not coming back next year to Palm Beach Atlantic most likely. =( I miss her. I know it is my fault for all this and it's just... sad. Who knows, maybe during my brother's graduation, when they are all down here we'll make-up.
I'm tired of living at home, but I'm sure most of you know that. My dad works til 11 every night since he is teaching the afternoon and night class, the only time I get to see him is when he drives me to the bus stop in the morning when I'm not in the mood to chat that much. My mom refuses to take her thyroid medicine and everyday she comes home and is tired and worn out and ends up just falling asleep and leaves me and my brother to find whatever we can to eat, which leaves me in charge since my brother has no clue. And when she does wake up she is irritable and then my dad comes home from work and is irritable too and then they argue. Next year I imagine it will be worse, but thankfully I will have a car. My brother is leaving in less than a month, for a pretty long time and I will miss him dearly. He's my brother, that guy that when I was little, beat me up and teased me, but we grew up and he is weird but I still love him so much.
I wish my bruises would go away, they still hurt when I touch them and they make me feel insecure with a big mark on the side of my arm. I wish I had someone to kiss and hang out with. I wish summer would come now, so I can forget about school and just have plain fun.