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drowning-in-you (profile) wrote,
on 6-3-2004 at 6:34am
Current mood: mixed
Music: something on mtv...
Subject: a few things on my mind i guess
well the senior assembly was yesterday & i was in a good mood until ppl had to ruin it for me during 6th period spanish III...it really sucked...& then having to hear things about me...i'm sorry, i know i let it get to me, but i tried for it to not get that far...but you gotta understand, it hurts...especially when you look at it from others' points of views & realize that, "hey, maybe they are right..."...

i heard all the constructive critizism that i could yesterday & i'd love to hear more...yes it'll make things bad for me possibly but i need to know what i did right & wrong...*oi*...

i had a talk w/ someone yesterday & their identity will be hidden...:


(*)says:
dude....becky...you.rocked.my.world....

it never was & never will be
you don't know how you betrayed
me says:
...yeah...i guess..

(*) says:
i.fuckin.didnt.know.you.could..play.
the.fuckin.bass.that.good.but.i.thought.
you.were.great.

it never was & never will be
you don't know how you betrayed
me says:
...yeah...i can't really...but thanks...
i'm just really bummed out cuz i saw
the tape of the show & i felt like shit...
cuz i felt like i was being put down
instead of getting constructive critisism...
so yeah...but thanks really

(*) says:
oh.dude....i.dont.think.i.should.tell.
you.this....but...naw..i.wont..

it never was & never will be
you don't know how you betrayed
me says:
tell me now

(*) says:
naw....its..fucked.up.

it never was & never will be
you don't know how you betrayed
me says:
tell me...i need all i can get

(*)says:
awww.it.could.ruin.a.friend.ship.

it never was & never will be
you don't know how you betrayed
me says:
tell me

(*)says:
alright..alright..well..i.didnt.know.
you.were.playing...so..*sirhc*...the..
suppose..punk.....he.came.in..and.he.
said..you.killed..the.song..and.i.was.
like..what....and.hes.like.the.song.
my.immortal.and.im.like.y.hes.like..
cuz..she.doesnt.sing.it.right...and.
hes.like.she.sings.alright..i.was.like..
ok....but.it.pissed.me.off.i.was.like.
oh.fuck.no.....im.going.to.have.to.
choke.a.bitch.

it never was & never will be
you don't know how you betrayed
me says:
well that's his fucking opinion...&
danny says he can cram it up
his own ass...& his mother's if he
wants to...because becky sings beautifully...yeah that's all danny's
saying by the way on the phone...
i'm not THAT concieted...yet

(*)says:
ya..thats.what.i.thought...i.would.
like.to.see.him.get..his.ass.up.there.
and..sing..haha.i.think.your.a.really.
good.singer........lol.

it never was & never will be
you don't know how you betrayed
me says:
plus he wasn't really my friend in
the first place...& if he was i bet that comment wouldn't have been made

(*) says:
so..ya...hes.a.hoe.

it never was & never will be you
don't know how you betrayed
me says:
lol



you know instead of losing a friend, i think i still have one that i trust alot...thanks (*)...told you i wouldn't reveal your identity... ;) ...

so yeah i'm kinda bummed out bout it & i was gonna write bout it last night, but i figured i needed some time to figure things out...

tonight is grad nite...that's coo...i'm just really tired & i don't think i'll actually care until it comes tonight...

i feel like joey & i are having problems again, & maybe it's just me...i was talking to a friend the other day bout a fight that we had (no this convo wasn't w/ danny by the way)...& he said that in all of my relationships he'd seen me in, he said i put up w/ alot of shit...i've been wondering if that's good or bad...well duh it's bad, but i wonder if me being able to put up with it is good...*hmm*...so yeah i think we're gonna have to talk...not like that i hope...i really hope...


i just want to say...i can't help being sad because i'm leaving all my friends & family behind...i can't help but cry because it's coming soon...i cant' help but think that soon tomorrow will be a day that i will wake up & say, "hey where did everyone go?"...i'm sorry that i've been bummed out but it's a scary thought for me really...to leave all that i've been w/ & been used to...my only excuse i can give is that i can't accept change very well...but that never seemed like a good enough reason...so be it...

cuz if you don't understand it...then how could you possibly understand me?...

talk later...
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