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kittyneko (profile) wrote,
on 6-22-2004 at 2:41am
Current mood: persnickety
Music: Ten Minutes Ago from Cinderella
Subject: Showtunes and dreams
Man, I forgot how much I loved broadway showtunes. I love going to shows on broadway. I was listening to this song called Unusual Way from some musical called "Nine". I dont know what the musical is about but I love the song. Here is some of the lyrics that I fell in love with.

"In a very unusual way
One time I needed you.
In a very unusual way
You were my friend.
Maybe it lasted a day,
Maybe it lasted an hour,
But somehow it will never end.

In a very unusual way
I think I'm in love with you.
In a very unusual way
I want to cry.
Something inside me goes weak.
Something inside me surrenders.
And you're the reason why,
you're the reason why.
You don't know what you do to me,
You don't have a clue.
You can't tell what it's like to be me looking at you.
It scares me so that I can hardly speak.

In a very unusual way
I owe what I am to you.
Thought at times it appears I won't stay,
I'd never go.
Special to me in my life,
Since the first day that I met you.
How could I ever forget you
Once you had touched my soul?

In a very unusual way
You made me whole."

I want to find this song somewhere, for I have only heard a clip of the song. I love musicals and plays. I get caught up in the action and suspense that is involved. I find myself immersed in the love story, wishing that it was true. I dream at night that I am that princess who has finally found her prince charming. The man that will erase all of the pain and tears. If only to be Cinderella and swept off my feet. However, I always wake up, and the harshness of reality only destroys my hopes and whims.

Thats why I love musicals and broadway. There is no real time. There is no reality on stage. Emotion is poured into song and expressed through dance and carefully choreographed movment. Nothing in life is done as beautifully as on stage. Sure, there may be problems and hardships, but good always wins, and love always remains strong. I liked to close my eyes and listen to the love songs. Though I hate to admit it, as I suck at expressing my emotions, I cling desperately to the hopes and perhaps foolish dreams of love. I want to feel like a princess, but how can I if I find no prince charming?

In this day and age, I find realtionships shocking. Who would have thought that there is some 13 years old out there having sex. 13! Its amazing how warped love has become. I hear teenagers claiming that they know what love is. Can that really be true? My mother says that I am too young to know what love is, but how can I tell that to my heart? Is it my innocence that leaves me free to love? I know I sound horribly naive and childish, perhaps a little obsessive, but I think I have fallen in love once. Albiet it was a one sided love. I just cant believe what others say when I know what I feel deep inside. Everyone deserves to find someone to love and be loved by. If anything that is all I want from my life. I could care less for money. I have been thinking a lot about the future and how it will be. Me and my mom went through the attic and my childhood. She wanted to keep some things for when I have my OWN little girl. I desperately want to give her that. It is the saddest thing in the world, looking at your childhood in a box, separating it into piles for trash, garage sale, or ebay. Some of it I cant bear to throw away, but most of it is leaving. I am losing my security blanket. Good bye childhood, here I am, being thrown into adulthood when I'm not even sure I'm ready...
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