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|CrazyBlondeOne (profile) wrote, |
on 7-25-2004 at 3:19pm
|Current mood: hurt
Music: Christmas by the phone-----GC
Subject: it hurts...
|im not gonna bother writing about my day. i dont feel like it. if you wanna know what happened just go read britt's. she'll probly write about it there. god this sucks. i pretty much know what it feels like to get your heart broken. and trust me it sucks. god you would think i would be over it and ok now after all that time that has passed...but im not ok. it still hurts. and it wont stop hurting. i mean its not like i was in love or anything...which is why this is all so wierd. we didnt go out or anything...but i still got hurt. i know he didnt mean to...but it still hurts. i told him how i felt too...and when i did it he acted like he didnt hear a thing i said. i havent talked to him for a while. which might be a good thing...but i wanna talk to him. i mean it doesnt hurt all the time...only sometimes. god it hurts so bad...and it wont stop. it doesnt go away. i mean i try so hard not to think of him but i cant sotp myself all the time. i wanna see him and i want everything to be ok. things may be ok with him....but im not ok. any nobody realizes that. i can go a while without it hurting...but then something brings back all the memories and it feels like my heart shatters into a million pieces all over again. i mean i can talk to him sometimes and i'll be fine....its after i get off the phone with him that sucks...thats when it starts hurting again. i just wish it didnt hurt so bad.