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|FreakishIYK (profile) wrote, |
on 7-30-2004 at 3:39pm
|Current mood: kinda sad
|It's been a while since I've been on here last. Guess I just can't keep up with it as well as I had hoped.
I haven't been up to much since I last updated. Although this week I volunteered at my church...yes, I volunteered. I'm one of the art teachers for their Vacation Bible School thing, but I also do the games there too. Today's my last day, Thank God. These past 4 days have shown me that...I really don't want a kid when I'm older.
And I haven't done much else but hang out with Mike...which in fact, he's helped me with the church thing too...yep, he actually went to church, kinda. He has to work 8 more hours just so he was able to get off early yesterday and help me. That was sweet of him...but of course I had to do something wrong. We had a little spat, but it passed. I still feel bad about him having to work all this week because of me. But anyway, other than that he usually just comes over and hangs out all day, or if it's not too early get ready for work at my house.
Recently I stumbled on to a web site of Billy's. I'm guessing he just put it up, it's an art site of his. But anyway, there was a contest on there to name one of his paintings, and I entered. I didn't want him to know it was me, so I created a new yahoo account and entered, and won. I didn't expect to win...I just wanted to talk to him I guess. But when he e-mailed me asking for my personal info, I had replied hinting at who I was...but yahoo turned out to be an ass because in the "From" column it shows my full name...so yea, he knows who I am now. But he's talking to me now...well, not right now. He's working on another site. He seems kinda different now though...or maybe he just doesn't want to talk to me anymore. Any minute now he'll say he has to go, and that he'll talk to me later, but it'll be another month or two when he signs on next...and it'll only be for a few minutes. Maybe I'm just looking too far into it...but he just seems so distant now...
Ok change of subject, what else is new? Dad's wanting to move to North Carolina. But he knows that I don't want to go...so since I'm almost 18, I don't have to. I guess if me and Mike are ok, we'll move in together, he's mentioned it a few times. But if not I have no where else to go, I'd either have to go with them, or find a place by myself, which I don't wanna do...
I guess that's about it. I'm not feeling very well right now, I'm just feeling a little down (it comes and goes....like you care) So I guess this is where I'll end this entry. If there's anything else I forgot, I'll try and add it later...but I'll probably just forget it by then. Oh well. Until then, bye.
Yep, I'm back, and I can just picture the smile on your face...yea, right. Well, I thought of more to add and I can't sleep, so what the hell, why not?
On Aug. 8 Mike will be going to Tampa for 2 weeks (yep, 2 whole weeks) to see his mom. I'm going to miss him like crazy. This is gunna suck...and I'm going to be starting school while hes gone too...damn. Oh yea, I start again Aug. 11th...wonderful.
Also, today was the last day of that church thing...which sucked. The kids were just so out of control today. Since today was the last day we had all the games out from this week. Lots and lots of stuff. After my 4 classes me and some of the other volunteers put everything away, which took awhile. After that was done and over I went and sat done in the closing ceremony thing. I was called up to stage to help pass out prizes and stuff like that. Well, during that Kim (the one in charge) asked me if I had all the games set up. Heh...what? She said after this the parents are going out for cake and refreshments and to keep the kids busy they can play games. Ok, it's 9 at night, these kids don't need to be playing now. But I didn't wanna be a bother so I said fine and went to get everything and a few more volunteers came to help me. While we're setting up my mom comes to pick me up (with 2 of our dogs, one in each arm....great). So at this point my head is pounding because I'm out of my medicine and I'm tired and all sweaty, and all the other volunteers my age are screwing around with the games making a mess before the little kids can. So I just tell mom screw this, there's 8 kids out here to help and a bunch of adult volunteers, they don't need me, lets go. So we just got up and left. I just don't like kids now...before I could tolerate them...but now, just no.
But I think that's it now. I'm really tired so I'm going to bed, I gotta take my year book pictures tomorrow (seniors get special pictures, yay me). I'll try and update more if I can, so until then, bye.