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|sandatthebeach (profile) wrote, |
on 8-18-2004 at 11:01pm
|Subject: Band Camp
|I want to just curl up in a ball and cry. I hate this...I feel so _______ (<--- fill in the blank)
I'm just disappointed by everything and just poop on a stick. I realized today how much I'm gonna miss the guys in band. ::Sigh:: During Star Spangled Banner...the trumpet dude didn't hit the note and I could feel my eyes wanting to tear up...and then for Hey Baby, the tuba kid didn't play and I was so disappointed. ::Sigh::
I should just give up....yeah? Yes. I realize...there's no chance that it'll ever happen and it's because of the way I am. I don't know waht the fuck to do anymore. I try...I really do...it's just not in me I guess...I wasn't born with it and it must be a natural talent then. ::Sigh:: School shouldn't start...I don't want it to anymore...because this means that I have to see people and I don't want to see people anymore.
I'll go "read" now...that's I think the 3rd day in a row I've said that that's exactly waht I'm gonna do. I'm screwed. Why do I do this to myself?
The bad week must be rapidly approaching because I'm super pissy right now. Blah.
Maybe I'll just go to bed instead....I have to wake up early tomorrow....around 6:30 so I can help the incoming freshman get lost....I mean learn their way around the school. So bye.