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|FreakishIYK (profile) wrote, |
on 9-18-2004 at 11:53am
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Subject: Been a while
|Feels like it's been so long since I last updated. I haven't been able to sign on for the past 2 weeks because I live in West Palm area, where hurricane Frances hit. Took FPL forever to finally put our power back on. It was like every street around mine had power, except my boyfriend's (who's only like 5 streets down). Yea, fun. Well, there was one good thing about it. Mike's been living at my house since the 5th, and had gone home yesterday after work. I loved him being there, I wish he didn't have to go.
I feel guilty about one thing though. I betrayed a really close friend. Let me explain, One day while me and Mike were out and about I was looking over my phone seeing if anyone texted me back ( I had sent a text message to Ashley and Billy) Then I saw, like an idiot, I sent a text to Billy's house number and not his cell (*Sigh* dumbass) So I sent another one, correctly this time, and within a minuet he texted me back. So we chatted like that for a bit, and it was nice. Well, after bit and I got home I went outside where I had signal and called him. When Mike came out he was a little jealous because he was making me laugh and things like that. Well, anyway for a few days it was bugging him and he wouldn't let it go, and it became an argument. I knew he wanted me to stop talking to him, he just wouldn't straight out and tell me to. I wanted to show him he didn't have to be jealous, that I would choose him...so I did one of the hardest things I had ever done. I sent Billy a text saying I can't talk to him anymore, and erased the numbers off the phone. I hate crying in front of people, so I try to avoid it...but I couldn't help it this time. Luckily Mike didn't see. Billy was my best friend. Now even if Mike got over it and said I can talk to him again, I know Billy wont, and I wouldn't blame him. I wouldn't want to talk to me either. I just want him to know how sorry I am, and that this friendship did mean a lot to me, please don't think it didn't.
There's not too much else going on though. Later today I'm going to go and get some applications for a job, and Mike'll come over later to hang out and get his stuff. I have his shirt on right now (shhh...) Last night was my first night without him in the house for 2 weeks....and his shirt still smells like him. Oh and I just thought of something else to add. Ok, my favorite show in the whole world is InuYasha (shut up, don't make fun) and every Saturday is a new episode and I tape them. Well, while the power was out I missed 2 of the new episodes, it sucked so bad. But today the satellite guys finally coming to replace our smart card. You see, after the powers been out for a while the card will expire and you can't get the satellite channels until it's replaced. So, they better come because if I miss a third episode I will be very unhappy.
Anyway, that's about it so I'll probably come on later to update more, if not I'll try tomorrow.