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|AnnaLeBelle (profile) wrote, |
on 9-20-2004 at 4:21pm
|Current mood: guilty
Music: Down With the Sickness; Disturbed
|::sigh:: I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I seem dissatisfied all of the time, nothing can please me anymore. I hunger for more, for perfection itself but even perfection is not enough. I expect too much from the people around me. I expect them to be flawless and when they're not I feel disappointed and angry that they could let me down.
I know it was wrong of me to be so angry at Trevor for something so stupid. I wish I could hug him and tell him I'm sorry, but my stupid pride keeps getting in the way. I worry about how I'll look, how he'll look. Maybe if we weren't in front of so many people. Maybe I will tomorrow.. I dunno. I don't want to embarrass him.. or myself.
I don't know what to do anymore, it feels like I'm a different person, I don't know myself at all anymore.