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|sandatthebeach (profile) wrote, |
on 10-16-2004 at 9:11pm
|Current mood: tired
Subject: Os ju sti medi ta bitur
|Dudes. I did it. I made IMEA. I freakin' made IMEA. I was not expecting that. And I'm so happy.
I actually cried because I was so happy and shocked and excited and ahhh! Ask anyone in choir. I was shaking...it was kinda pathetic actually not that I think about it.
It was really bad this week because I was so doubtful of myself and I just didn't think that I would be good enough or I would majorly screw up....and I did....but I guess it wasn't as horrific as I thought. I gave myself such a hard time. And I was so pissed that night too.....I walked out of the room so mad at myself. Even the following morning, people asked about it and I refused to answer....I didn't want to think about it. And then OC said my name I was just in complete shock. ::Sigh:: I'm happy.
It kinda pissed me off when Kurt announced me being in District choir everytime he freakin saw me that day. I was finally like Kurt shut up. I'm not someone who takes compliments very well...and I don't revolve my life around them. Compliments make me uncomfortable. I often take them for sarcasm...that's how weird I am. Just, you guys, I don't want to be self-centered...and I'm not (or at least I don't think I am....PLEASE inform me if I am....I don't want to turn into one of those people) and I don't people to encourage that I guess....I don't know...I'm not sure what I want to say anymore. Blah.
Ok I'm off.