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|musicalbabe (profile) wrote, |
on 10-18-2004 at 3:51pm
|Current mood: crushed
|How many tears is it going to take before I realize that I need to change my life?
I finally broke down today and cried. I still have at least 20 minutues of good hard sobbing to do before the stressed/unhappy chemicals leak their way out of my system. At least I know what the problem is.
I'm trying to do too much and I expect myself to do exceptionally in everything. Why? Now that's a tough question to answer.
Mrs. Passallo informed me today that I'm going to have to drop SOMETHING in order to make time for my academics. It's okay now, but it'll have to change.
Unless I want to go to NYU or something.
Hrm. Do I?
And then sometimes I just sit and think, this is absurd. I'm 15 and I'm supposed to be making choices about my life and my career? I'm supposed to be managing my time in a way that most supports my future? I have an entire decade until I've completed A QUARTER of my life. What kind of society do we live in where we have to make choices like this NOW?!
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