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|suspensionrings (profile) wrote, |
on 2-15-2005 at 9:29pm
|& sometimes it just sneaks up and devours from the inside out. I've got that song stuck in my head, the one he used to sing at me back when it mattered, "I don't mind spending every day out on your corner in the pouring rain. Look for the girl with the broken smile, ask her if she wants to stay awhile. And she will be loved, and she will be loved . . ."
But with experience comes knowing that he meant it more for her. Always for her. Everything for her.
Can I blame him? No. I feel the same thing for him. I know how it dominates. There's a portion of your heart you can only give away to one person in each lifetime. For me, that's him. For him, it's her. I pray that I'm right in assuming Claire and Dan's are each other . . .
Trilogy, and least of it. I can never bring myself to believe otherwise.
He existed mostly as a figment of my imagination. And I think I as his. I'm so sick of long-distance relationships. So sick of being lonely, of waiting on a chance and a might-be. Of spending less than a month, total, with the love of my life.
C'est la vie. As much as I hate it, I know I just have to move on.