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emo414 (profile) wrote,
on 4-23-2005 at 11:03pm
Current mood: amazed
Music: "work" - jimmy eat world
Subject: same old lines
"All the best DJs r savin
Their slowest song for last
When the dance is through
Its me and u
Come on would it really be so bad
The things we think might be the same
But I won't fight for more
Its just not me to wear it on my sleeve
Count on that for sure

All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
You want to take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
Yeah - We still have time

Can't say I was never wrong
But some blame rests on you"

they are the lines that come from movies
the lines that come from magazines on how to let him/her off easy
the lines come from every lame hearted person trying to get out of a relationship and they couldnt use what they really wanted to say because they didnt have the courage
the lines like "its me not YOU" and "we can still be great friends right?"
and it seems like no matter how much the person on the recieving end of those words wants to say cut the bullshit, they never do. they rather take the lines, knowing they r bullshit, and walk away from the whole situation, knowing all along "u got beat, someone is better than you, someone brings a new element to the line talker's life."

i never thought i would be one of those people on the recieving end of those lines, or be the one to say them at all. but most of all i never expected myself to take those lines and not demand to be told the truth, and be one of those people who puts up with the bullshit. i love being straight forward and i respect when others do as well. i thought i would always deserve and demand the straight forward hardcore information from someone that i spent so much time with and had so much involved in a relationship with. i never thought someone that i cared so much about would feed me those bullshit lines, and on that note i never thought someone who claimed she loved me would say those lines either. but i guess i expected too much out of people. i always put so much faith into things and always get shut out or let down. i think iam through putting my all into relationships that are one day just going to end. i think i am going to invest all my time in friends and maybe have some hook ups on the side. and i say that now in the heat of the moment but in a day or two i will be longing to have that relationship back, or A relationship back, because i need the security and comfort that a second member to a party brings.

its kind of humorous, i think i called this relationships ending. if u read the last entry i thought after the second time she would go to the arms of a friend. and i think i was right. it hasnt happened yet and i dont know if i can handle the whole situation again. it sucks how everytime i set myself up for disaster. in the end i can always blame myself for what happens, either i introduced them or something else along those circumstances, but i always come back and blame myself for what happened. i guess there is another one of my flaws that i should cut out. blaming myself for everything. like the downhill movement of a friends life, or the realtionship gone sour between me and "the ex." oh well. it all comes with being young and stupid i guess.
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