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|unbleachedblond (profile) wrote, |
on 4-29-2005 at 11:51pm
|Current mood: aggravated
|well i did it. i got up he nerve to break up with peter. my primary concern was trying to not hurt his feelings even tho everyone told me that it would be inevitable. but i felt like shit cuz he cried. i think that the poor kid actually really liked me. but he was moving way too fast - we had only been together for 1 1/2 months. he wanted to convert me to mormon(ism?) and wanted to get marryed and have kids. im sorry, but im 18 years old and the thought of having a future with anyone at this point of time is totally out of the question. plus, there's no way that i will raise my kids mormon. im sorry, but it's not happening. its been two days, and he called while i was working. he wants to get together and talk this over. but im thinking that he wants to get back together. the answer is no. i love the kid as a friend and really not much more. there is no future between the two of us. i dont know how to relay this to him without furthering squanching his feelings. im very much perturbed. if only i had realized this a lot sooner, it would have saved both of us the pain (me the pain of having to hurt someone, him the pain of getting hurt.) it's thoroughly perplexing. so here i sit, with my half gallon of turtle rock ice cream trying to figure out what to say to him. it's stupid boys to blame for makin us fat. pssh.