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|jburt1 (profile) wrote, |
on 5-1-2005 at 8:01pm
|Music: hot hot heat "goodnight"
Subject: we are merely freshmen...
|Jill, I feel your pain. I'm stuck in a relationship where this girl likes me more than I like her. It doesn't make it better that she says she tries not to like me but can't. Last night I was planning on just hanging out on campus, playing cards or watching movies, doing some homework, but this girl talked me into going to the bar with her. There was a lot of drama involved with some of the girls, so we ended up not going. Things got pretty heated up. I feel guilty because I let things escalate when I probably should have stopped them. No, we didn't have sex, but you shouldn't do what we did when you're uncertain whether or not you like the person. In any case, we were stopped because one of our friends knocked on the door and had to talk to this girl. It was probably a good thing. We ended up going to some random party with a bunch of 20-something-year-olds. This girl was all over me at the party too. I wouldn't have such a problem about it but there's more to do that just make out all the time, not that that's what our relationship is. Plus, at a party you want to mingle and talk to people you don't know. And some girl told us to stop because "it would be more fun at your apartment." Just a nice way of saying stop the PDA you hornballs. She didn't want to stop b/c she was drunk. Ahh...I just...I can't...articulate what I am trying to say or why I feel this way or even how i feel. We talked about things, but I'll let you all in on a secret. Sometimes i tell girls what they want to hear. The majority of the time I just try to act indifferent. I think I'm going to burn myself a CD to listen to...