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|nightshade666 (profile) wrote, |
on 5-15-2005 at 7:26pm
|I'm so pissed off. I want to kill everyone and everything. Fuck this shit.
First I was told I'm getting a car, now I'm fucking not. What the fuck. Then Mike tries giving me this lecture about how I should act like a man and respect everything. Bull fucking shit. Maybe I should go fuck some women I met on the internet for a few weeks and lie to the women I've been dating for a year. Then I might be in line for a respect talk.
I don't respect myself. Bingo, and don't you think it's a little dangerous to fuck someone over who doesn't care about what happens to themselves or others. I don't know, maybe I'm just over reacting a little or maybe I'm finally letting go of my sanity, but I want to burn down this house and everyone in it.
I could really care less. I never asked to be born. I never asked for any of this bullshit. They say life's not fair but aren't you supposed to get a break at least once and a while. Fuck this. I think I'm going to go die now.
I have few actual friends anymore that I could call to hang out with, nothing to do, nowhere to go, nowhere to be, no where I want to be.
I've thought about suicide as an option for weeks now. You know, the longer time goes on, it keeps popping up, and it looks better and better everytime. I'd be afraid of the pain, but even that would go away. Then I wouldn't have to worry about anything, or deal with anyone's bullshit. The only thing I would want to do is say goodbye. But how exactly do you tell everyone goodbye without letting them know where you're going?
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