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|chuckitatthewall (profile) wrote, |
on 7-18-2005 at 5:29pm
|seems as though people are back to their old ways again. summer was going so well until i realized it. now i gotta go face reality which i was doing a marvelous job of avoiding. that sucks really bad. so i will go back to school in 5 1/2 weeks and face the shittiness of it all and pray the time goes by swiftly cause i think i will die if it doesnt. honestly there is a world out there that i'll never fucking understand and whats the point cause i get glimpses of that shittiness and realize how truly stupid and childish it is. i dont need to be apart of that so hopefully i'll be able to ignore it somewhat well and wait until i'm 18 and get out of the shithole called san jose california. yea that will be nice.
other things: moms an ass. i knew that already but she is more of an ass now because is keeping me from a relationship with my sister. next summer monica said that she and james will be moving up to eldorado hills so i can go spend the summer with her and get a job and stuff. i think thats a good idea. i'm trying get out of san jose as much as i can and that will be a good opportunity to experience another way of living and make some new friends and have fun and not be in front of a computer or t.v for most of the summer. next year seems so far off. i hope i can make it that long. i have this feeling that my parents are going to get on me this winter and because no one will be there to defend me i'm going to have to stand up and take it like a man even though i am in fact a girl.
well i think thats all i have to say for now. i could probably go on for hours but i'll go write on it on paper. bye