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|Shoe23 (profile) wrote, |
on 8-7-2005 at 12:50am
. through my eyes I see the past .
This hasn't been a good weekend. Not at all. Not only because of what has happened but even what hasn't. It's just been long and seemingly hard to make it through. It was my last weekend to hang out in Weaubleau. The last weekend to see Mike acting pissed as he lurks around... but I'm tired of it. I'm ready to change my ways for good. I know I have better waiting for me somewhere.. someday.
I've been really depressed all weekend though. I'm just blah. I don't know why, maybe 'cause I finally realize what I'm facing. Also, the issue with my parents support -the lack thereof- has been bothering me going into the college scene. That's alright.. I'll either get over it or die with it. Either one will work. I have a feeling my past will stick with me for a while though. Don't get me wrong, I don't want my memories to go away.. if I did, I'd just might as well wish away everything I know and every ability I have to someone else because everthing I have has come from my past. It also helps me to realize and respect everything I have going for me now.. being able to clearly see all I'm lucky enough to experience and everyone I get a chance to know.
I'm saying too much in this entry.. getting all personal and everything. If any of you I speak to wishes to know more about anything you know all you have to do is ask.
I doubt this entry even made sense considering I've been drinking a bit and can hardly form a complete sentence without deleting it five times. I'll fix it tomorrow.. today, whatever.