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|rockon14 (profile) wrote, |
on 10-17-2005 at 10:22pm
|Music: Fall Out Boy
Subject: Why Don't You Just Drop Dead?
|I've had such an excellent weekend!
Such a good weekend that it's caused me to have an excelltent Monday (I know...crazy stuff)
So let's see, maybe I'm in such a good mood that I'll give you a real update *shock*
So this past week has been crazy stressfull. It's not like I don't know how to deal with stress. I don't know what to do with myself when I'm not stressed out. This past week somehow stripped me of my "anti-stress freak out" skills. I was loosing my head over every other little thing. Things that I usually wouldn't sweat over at all. I spent most of my time just crying and crying and freaking out. I thought about a million times, "I can't take this anymore. I have to change my major." I really don't want to change my major. Music is what I love, and I really believe that this is the direction that God is pointing me in. By the time Friday rolled around...well, you wouldn't have wanted to encounter me.
The church that we've been going to had planed this thing for the college aged kids. Emma and I had said that we'd bring people, and the majoirty of our friends seemed like they were really into it. Of course on Friday four people decided that they didn't want to come after all (*note, this was quite reasonable, but I was crazy at the time), which of course sent me into frantics. I was in such a bad mood. I felt like absolute shit, so I decided that I didn't want to go either. I knew Luke was going to be there and I knew that he was going to say something to piss me off and I wasn't going to give him any room for mercy. I would simply rip his throat out with my bear teeth (reminder....i was mad.) Of course I had to go because I said that I'd be there, so I tried to pick myself up and look pretty and get on with life.
I won't tell the whole story of that night, because that would take forever, but to put it in short, it was awesome. I'm so glad I went. Luke wasn't even mean to me (can't say that I wans't mean to him...but hell, I was upset.)
Saturday I slept....
it was amazing.
Sunday was church which of course was awesome as well. I got a lot of back up with this music thing and I feel a lot more confident about what I'm doing. By that time I was so happy I just wanted to hug everyone there, or throw little hearts filled with love everywhere in the air.
All that and I was still as tired as hell.
I <3 Fall Out Boy
I'm sleeping on your folk's porch again, dreaming
She said "Why don't you just drop dead"
I don't blame you for being you
But you can't blame me for hating it
So say what are you waiting for
Kiss her, kiss her
I set my clocks early 'cause I know I'm always late