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|wiredshut (profile) wrote, |
on 11-17-2005 at 5:10pm
|Current mood: hyper
Subject: Riding and other periods of my wierd life.
|well i have to be quick because the libary is about to close. its really annoying walking home in the dark again- it takes me a while to get used to it. and this flipping coldness is killing me! i dont handle the cold well and its getting through and hitting my bones! hard. was daydreaming as usual on my way home yesterday and found myself dreaming of riding again (horses- do not think anything else!!!) i really miss it and am trying to think of a way to get into it again comfortably. its also a really good way to keep of the dreaded weight- i mean i was able to look good in jodphurs for christ sake! no way would i now. in fact i still have my jods at home- the day i fit into thouse again will be the day that i am waiting for- i think i will be waiting a long frickin time i tell ya! i kinda failed the other day when my uncle brought chocolates and i almost ate the whole box- literally. but i love chocolate. mm.. chocolate... anyway, i really would love to start at the stables again but i left so suddenly and i also don't think that they have a horse big enough for me- its only their children that ride there now. i really do love horses though- i always had such fun. in fact it was the best time of my life when i wwas there- we were like a little family and we used to have so much laughs- jumping of the balcony, dancing in the barn, swinging on the trapize- doing anything horsey. even mucking out was fun. me and lyds were best friend and we did ewverything together. we used to plan these syncronised riding plans and i used to look after her when she got nervouss of jumping. then i became a reclused holed up my room on my own doing nothing, then i became a slut, holed up elsewhere not so on my own and not doing nothing, then i became a girly girl, then i became a loner, then i became friends obsessed and now i am me. what gonna happen next???