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|sugarmouse0587 (profile) wrote, |
on 12-10-2005 at 5:18pm
|i'd say i don't care anymore. i think i want that to happen cause i'm not doing a very good job. why can't i have two or three? who says that's wrong? i'm still not over all those stupid things either. it's like it wasn't almost two years ago.
and it's official. again. christmas is horrible. it's so dumb. i don't want presents. i don't want trees or lights or family or friends. i want to do something good for someone who needs me. NOT because it's christmas, but because i should be a good person all year. then maybe i can feel decent. i miss my peepers. i think they're the only thing i don't hate.
i hate everything. la la la lala.
and the paranoia is coming back. good times.
so sad. meh. nothing makes sense. i'm contemplating jumping off a bridge. head's up.