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|ImUgly (profile) wrote, |
on 2-8-2006 at 5:41pm
|Current mood: sad, anxious, scared
Subject: the nightmares, they kill
|i had my alarm set for 455 this morning because i was planning on taking a little trip to the mesto, which i have not been to since the summer. i also needed to stop by the construction site to see if they have anything i could possibly use on my project. i was way too tired, so i decided to get some rest instead. bad idea. i spent the next 4 and a half hours in the worst dream ive ever expirienced. i woke up crying and it took me a few minutes to realize that it was just a dream. i just sat and cried, hoping ill never be around when something like that does happen. or am i just waiting?
ive just recently stopped associating with someone ive known for quite a while now. only because i am scared and too much of a coward to try to trust him once more.
NO! nevermind. discard that second paragraph. i am so glad about what i did(or didnt do, for that matter). my accusations were correct. so fuck him. well at least he doesnt have to hide anything anymore. and he'll never have my trust again. i cant believe i didnt learn my lesson the first couple times.