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|jennapie (profile) wrote, |
on 2-14-2006 at 10:35am
|Is it really totally pathetic if I am completely unmotivated, and can't seem to force myself to do anything that I should do? and yet, I'm totally willing to do everthing that I shouldn't? I think it's pathetic, and I'm sick of it. And yet, for the life of me, I can't make myself change it! So I guess I'm just going to have to continue being a bum and not get anything accomplished that I should, and continue not caring. It's so easy.
Happy Valentines Day Everyone! I'm having a really really good day!!! even though I have over two hours till my next class........grrrr!! after spring break this will be better! I have to go to Meijer's today. I've been saying that for a week now, and I still haven't gone. SEE!! totally unmotivated!!! I don't know what's wrong with me!!! I just don't care! Maybe I'm finally sick of spending money, but that's doubtful, I think I am just sick of going to school. It gets in my way of doing stuff that I wanna do. Oh, and I'm sick of being told what to do. I wish so bad that I was more independent. Seriously, it's completely unfair the things that I still have to do. Maybe I just think so because I'm the one who has to do them, but it seems to me that once everyone on this planet is in college, and have a job, and pay for their own stuff, have a little bit more freedom than I have. I don't know, maybe it's just me.
But anyways, I got the best Valentines Day present this morning when Jake picked me up. It was the most thoughful present I have ever gotten. It means more when it's completely done to make you happy, and you know that every piece of it is honest and true. Ahhh, I am the luckiest person on this planet. I know that's what everyone says when they find someone to love, but honest to God, I am, we are the most perfect couple I have ever seen. I don't know, I can't stress enough how much he means to me, we've tried so hard to find the words that make what we feel for each other seem enough, but the words don't exist. We feel and mean more to each other that no words would ever be big enough, or have enough meaning to make it seem as big and important as it is. I LOVE JAKE MELLEMA, and that doesn't do it any justice.
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