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|highlyevolved (profile) wrote, |
on 3-25-2006 at 5:27pm
|Music: madonna :: vogue
Subject: the current situation
|It's been another very quick week, everything is speeding up very quickly. We only have 30 something days of school and so many things are going on. There's AP exams, Graduation, Prom, Spring Break, College crap...it's all very overwhelming. And while I feel I should go to Berry....it's just a hard call. Berry does make my hard work feel appriciated, but I know I wouldn't have needed to work so hard to get there...so it kind of seems my efforts were wasted perchance? I mean...4 AP Classes, 3.9 GPA, 1790 SAT score, 29 ACT score all are a bit above the average Berry student, right? And I don't even think my achievements in school are that spectacular. Better than average, yes. But I'm not Ivy League material. I kind of see myself as being mediocre in the realm of over-acheiving. I'm not one of those kids who is really smart but is really lazy, nor am I incredible gifted and make perfect, flawless scores on everything. There just is an uncertainty to all descisions and there isn't a glaring "correct" answer. Kind of a like a AP Multiple choice question, pick the best suited or most right answer...because some others could be considered correct. I think the presence of the German exchange students has also made me question my feelings toward education. There system is so much more difficult and intense, American schools seem subpar compared to the rigor and seriousness that they apply to the Gymnasium school (the higest level of German high school). It kind of makes me feel insecure in a way, as if my country isn't giving me the best education possible. I know the education system in the United States is lacking, but I'd like to think my high school is challenging and effectively preparing me for the rest of the world. But what is my high school in reality is very easy and my grades are inflated and this all means nothign? What if I crash and burn in the real world? I don't think that's necessarily true, but for some people in this country it very well may be. All in all the end of my high school education and this transition period is making me very confused and rambly.