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|kitty2004 (profile) wrote, |
on 7-10-2006 at 9:20am
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Subject: emotionaly f*cked
|Some people sit and think of how they can end all of the bull sh*t going on in their life. I know b/c I used to be one of those people. I would just sit in my room playing my favorite cd over and over again. Trying to think of the best way to comit suicide. Then I found out I was pregnant with Kyra. I had no problem killing my self but i would never kill a child. I never knew that such a small child could save my life. I still get depressed but I know I have a reason to wake up now.
I some times just wanna grab my daughter and drive away untill I can keep my eyes open. Just drive to some where I've never been. Ever wish you could exscape reality! just take a vacation!
I'm so emotionaly f*cked right now. I'm happy and sad all at the same time! all I wanna do is run away and at the same time I just wanna curl up in his arms and fade out the world. I have so much shit to do and I don't even know where to begin. life is just spinning me in circles I thank every friend I have that has stuck by my side threw all the b.s that has gone on in my life.It's nice to know that some people would miss me if I was ever to leave this earth.