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|chaosdecrepit (profile) wrote, |
on 12-6-2006 at 1:26am
|Current mood: contemplative
Music: space monkey - Placebo
Subject: we're sewn together
he's born to mesmer
|With Malcolm's quote of "dating you meant nothing to me", as well as shit he's said to other people and myself, I have concluded that he never cared about me and was only "with" me to try and manipulate me into letting him fuck me.
Not only does this make me feel like shit to mean so little to my first "boyfriend", but I'm angry at myself for not kicking him to the curb.
This does not restore my lost faith in humanity.
I'm done my classes for winter semester, except for a final on Thursday that I have not begun to study for. English Lit, ugh. I should probably go to sleep or something but I think I'll sit in bed and watch The Omen.
Today I slept until noon... Probably because I was so tired from pulling the all-nighter to write that 1800 word essay on satire of Shakespearean characters in Goodnight Desdemona (Good Morning Juliet).
I'm going to watch the Gankutsuou: The Count of Monte Cristo anime soon. That has me a little excited. And I return home on Monday. Hopefully there is love there waiting for me.