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on 3-27-2007 at 10:03am
|blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my throat hurts!!!! I'm sucking down orange juice so it will hopefully go away...but damn it's sore! I'm still quite ridiculous in my happiness....lol. Eric's mom liked me!!! :-) She took us out to dinner on Saturday....and bought me PEEPS!!! And Eric even remembered how i like them (a little on the hard side), so he cut open a package before i got there so that in a few days they'll be good to eat! I even think his sister Sam liked me lol. She's not a huge talker and she's super shy, but by the end of the weekend, she was talkin with me a bit :-).
....I explained to Eric a bit about my family. Throughout college so far, I've gotten away with just saying htat me and my dad don't get along. But with everything that's been going on (my dad is out of the house and my mom has an order of protection against him)....i've been pretty uptight, and when i'm tossing and turning in bed at night and can't sleep, Eric notices.....and i'm not one to lie to him. So I told him the basics. Just kinda what was going on. I'm still pretty determined to let the past die. maybe i'll tell him if he ever asks. Or if it ever seems necessary. Maybe when dad dies....not everything...but a little. We'll see. I like NOT talking about it....I like not having people see that when they look at me.
But enough of that.....if the time comes for it, it will...and if not, then good riddance! :-)
It really does amaze me how happy I am up here. I can let all the shit with my family fall away and jsut relax and be me. Yeah, some people would call it running away from my problems....but wouldn't you run too?? Haha, basically I see the fact that whatever I went through up to this point has made me me....but I don't have to acknowledge it all. :-)
ADD - I'm applying for a student supervisor position at the MP. I don't know if I'll get it or not, but I hope i do. I want the challenge of leadership!!! Even if it's just a little bit. And I hope everything works out for summer jobs!!! EEEEEk. I gotta pay rent lol. But I won't know that for another week or two.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh ok...i should probably go get some work done....I wanted to write more...but it's all kinda scrambled :-P
just know that i'm happier than i've been in as long as i can remember....plain and simple. :-)