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|whenthesunsets (profile) wrote, |
on 4-30-2007 at 7:08pm
|Current mood: hurt
Subject: He doesn't even know
|How I feel about him. I guess he thinks he knows, or thinks what he wants to think. Maybe he doesnt believe how strongly I feel for him. I want so much with him. I wish he could see it. I wish he cared to. I am so crazy in love with him and I think about how much he has grow a part of me everyday. Everyday I think about how much I care for him, and how no matter what he does he gives me that feeling that is the best feeling. The most indescribable feeling. I will never stop loving him this way. I wish he understood how he really hurts me sometimes. I get so frustrated that maybe he really doesnt feel like I feel. I feel lead on. I feel like Im hoping and waiting. For what? Im not even sure. I want to know for sure what he wants. Maybe hes afraid to grow up, afraid of responsibility, afraid of commitment. Which if it is true, im a fool. If he even knows. I want to know if I am wasting my time waiting for him to want to care. I dont even know what he wants with me anymore. He cant even answer me. Well he could answer me but it'd just be words. I dont even know if he means anything he saids because he never acts like hes says he feels, shows me how he feels. Theres never any effort or desire for how he says he "feels". I don't know where to go from here. Its not fair to me, I want him to be honest, whether he ends up hurting me or whether we do belong together.
Does he care about how I feel? Does he want more with me? Is he still attracted to me? Does he still want me? Does he want to make me happy anymore? Does he want to experience new things with me? See the world with me? Does he care?
I am in love but does he know it?