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|kunta (profile) wrote, |
on 8-19-2007 at 5:53pm
|Current mood: angry
Music: Soulja Boy
Subject: Story of my Life
|So, today is sunday and I was bored out of my mind. Chuck called and woke me up at 10am, I had just actually fallen asleep. He needed something for fantasy football. Needless to say I couldn't fall back asleep so I been doing some random shit all day.
I was so bored that I actually went back in this journal and read some past entries from like 2003. Some of it was just funny, but some of it actually sparked some old memories that needed to stay hidden. I forgot how much I used to enjoy venting in this thing for the world to see. Its about that time I think again as finally I have become realistic to my current situation.
You Would think that after 7 or 8 years now that I might have the slightest idea of women and how they work. Well I guess I was wrong. Kunta feel in love and yet again had his fucking heart shattered into a million pieces. I actually let someone back into my life and I can safety say that it was indeed the best year and ten months ive ever had. I was a happy person, people saw me change, I went from being a total asshole, to a decent guy. Well now its all over in one fail swoop. I don't know exactlly what happened, but I do know somethings. I was crushed at first, litteraly, it was bad, but now I'm confused and angry. I just don't understand how someone can proclaim there love to you then have another boyfriend within a week after leaving me. I don't doubt her love, I knew she loved me very much, but what am I suppose to think in lue of things. Maybe this is her way of coping with it? I don't know, but thats pretty fucked up in my book. I tryed to give that girl everything she ever wanted, was always there for her, and what did I get? Stabbed in the heart and kicked to the ground. So Yes, Im sad, but Im pretty angry also. More confused then anything I guess because she claimed she still wanted to be friends but yet won't talk to me or respond to me.
It will be a long time before anyone gets inside again, a very very long time indeed.
Going to resubscribe to the YMCA again, winter is comming and basketball is the only thing left in my life and has never left me since I been 2 years old. Figure Ill go to the Y after work every morning and maybe get back in shape again.
Thats all For Now Kiddies, I gotta lay down for a bit before work.
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