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|coot1120 (profile) wrote, |
on 9-5-2007 at 12:20am
|Alright, so the long awaited update has arrived.
I passed boards. This is amazing to me. Sometimes I sit back and it just hits me that I really am a nurse. Everything I have worked so hard for the last four years have been achieved. I'm at where I dreamed of being for so long. It's such a surreal feeling. What is next after this? Marriage, family? Not for me. I'm just going to live life now and try to save some money, take some trips, and enjoy life with the people I love.
Everyday at work I am amazed that people actually think I know what I am talking about. Sure, I have some experience but I talk to my patients and their families, and when I say things, they don't question it. The respect that people have for nurses surprises me. We talked about it in school but to experince it is another thing.
I really don't like my job. Today I am going in for day 7, which I want to scratch my eyes out because of this. The hospital is ok, the patients are fine, its the people I work with. They are just rude people. There are a lot of asian and indian people, and I know that there are different cultures, but it's not an environment that is nice. People don't work together, everyone complains all the time, and people say rude things. After I get off of orientation and start doing things on my own, I am going to look for a new job. There is no way I can stay at this job for a year. I'll be a meaner person I think. And definately really cynical.
Chicago is really fun! I just wish that I knew more people here to do things with. Kari and I basically have an opposite schedule, and I think we'll work opposite weekends. It gets lonely at times, but once I am on 12 hours shifts, I'm getting a pet. I can't decide between a cat or a dog, but I'll get something. Plus I'm thinking about getting another job so I can meet people my own age and make some friends down here. That's another thing about my job. Everyone is older, married, and has kids. Or they are single asian women who are just mean. No one I really want to hang out with after work. Even the nurses aids are all older with families. That's just not the scene I'm into, obviously. I'm into the going out and getting drunk scene.
A year ago I couldn't have imagined that my life would be this way now. I never would have thought that things would ever be going this well with Jason. I didn't think I would be in the position with him ever again. Yet here we are, together, having a great time together. While I'm really sad that I am away from him, I do not for one second regret moving here. I made this decision when we weren't dating, and I know this is what I wanted. I just don't think I would have been this happy with my life if I would have stayed in Grand Rapids. The question for me is what I want to do with my life after I'm done living in Chicago, whenever that is. I try not to think about it, as I am really enjoying living in the moment. The only adult thing I have to worry about is starting to pay back my loans next month and saving my money. That is really the only thing that makes me feel like an adult right now. Otherwise I'm in this limbo between college and adulthood, which I sort of like.
Off to work now, dreading every moment of it. I'm with a really neurotic nurse today, I hope that her stress doesn't rub off on me.
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