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|moonshinehommie (profile) wrote, |
on 11-1-2007 at 10:17pm
|I don't know what is wrong with me today. Just for the sake of my own sanity I think I will claim that I am a little depressed.
The wierd thing is that I don't really know why. Is it because of my horrible night last night? or is just because I feel like my life is going no where. I hate my job and I don't know what else I could do...I have been applying to other jobs since I lost my last one and still haven't found a real job. That place is a curse once you start then you cant stop...it sucks you in somtimes I feel like I just want to shoot myself rather than go in for another shift.
I have recently been thinking about what it is that I think that I want to do with my life and have realized that I don't really want to do anything...I have no ambition for life...I think I would be compleatly happy just sitting at home doing nothing all day...there is something wrong with this senerio you can't just do nothing...I know this...but ahhh sigh I don't know
Maybe I just need friends...Nobody is ever around alls I do is hang out with his friends...except for the occasional girl-friend that shows up out of the blue for me. Kate's never around anymore...and really she's all I have plus I think she's mad at me anyways she just won't talk about it.
we are suppose to go to the movies tonight to see the midnight premier of that movie with denzel washington I can't remember the name of it ....probably because I really don't have any inclination to see it...but whatever if it gets me out of the house whatever.
off to my abiss of nothingness