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|star-sailor (profile) wrote, |
on 6-8-2008 at 8:36pm
|Music: Paper Planes - M.I.A.
Subject: Rudolph and The Two Runs, or, Moving On When Moving On Is Never An Option, or, As Told By Ginger From Florence
|Reader, reader, reader.
What would I do without you?
I would still be writing.
I'd be talking to the ceiling; I would be scribbling away, page by page, or fervently typing away endless letters, vowels, phrases, sentences, paragraphs, until there is nothing more to be written. But for some reason, you return, and you read. That brings me a little solace.
I've been talking to Sarah a lot more recently. Though, I suppose it would help if I told you more about her. Sarah is one of Rachel's old friends, whom I met (via internet) sometime last year. She seemed like an interesting person, and I wanted to get to know her better. We talked back and forth for quite some time through Myspace. At some point, we fell out of talking for no readily apparent reason.
Three weeks or so ago, I was trying to talk to more people. And she happened to be around. Raelizing I hadn't talked to her in forever, I started conversation with her. It hasn't died out, so I suppose that's a good thing.
I guess I'll tell you, reader, my plans for summer. I haven't told this to anyone yet, really, but I think it's time for me to put the message out there. Sarah lives in Florence, South Carolina. We were talking about travel, and I was telling her about how I haven't really traveled anywhere interesting. This got me to thinking, not only about how little I have traveled, but how many of my friends have traveled. Amie is going to leave to London, Ethan is going to Germany, Taylor is coming from Montana to Texas, Christina is going to San Antonio... Everyone is leaving somewhere, and for the past three years, I haven't done anything interesting with my summer.
With that in mind, I decided that I would like to visit Sarah in South Carolina. I really wanted this to be a roadtrip, but my mom convinced me otherwise due to gas prices. There are no definite plans, but the idea is that I will fly into Florence from DFW sometime within the next month. I'm really excited to go; I want to get out of this town and have a real adventure like my friends. Things still need to get sorted out, as far as plans, and buying plane tickets, and finding a place to stay while in Florence are concerned. But as I plan with Sarah, I'm anxious to leave. I'm ready.
Cullen left a bulletin on Myspace yesterday about suggestions for rap songs to remix. He's been remixing a lot recently, which is cool. I suggested a lot. Then I randomly developed a crazy obsession with rap. I started listening to tonnes like crazy out of nowhere. So much so that I decided to make a playlist and post it on Voilà!. I'll include the playlist at the bottom of this entry.
I've been playing WoW a lot more. I realize this is a defense mechanism for me; it's not the first time that I've tried to drown out my reality in fiction. But at this point, I find my possible options dwindling. I applied to a library and Plato's Closet for a summer job. I was accepted at neither - a saddening truth. I will be applying at other shops that I have a mild interest in working at, but the fact remains that I don't have much to do with my time. I busy myself with mundane entertainments day in, day out, trying to soothe my confused soul. It's working like a drug, but it's doing what I want, which is distracting me, so I can't complain too much.
I've also been a little inspired. Leslie plays WoW a lot more than I thought she did. She has multiple level 70s, as well as other high level characters. I only have one level 70 character, and a few others which are fairly low. Now that I know she's online frequently, I'm more intrigued in playing to catch up to Leslie's character, as well as her boyfriend Matt's character. I've played with her a couple times now. She's such a joy - it's cool that we share an interest like this, especially since it's so nerdy! And it's fun to spend time with her, even if it is on the internet.
I had a funny dream last night. Leslie, Matt, and I playing WoW before I went to bed. We had a conversation about different characters, where Leslie mentioned that she didn't like the Tauren (cow-like characters). We joked about her dislike of them for a little while after that,since Matt and I both have tauren. I digress: last night, I had a funny dream. I don't remember many of the details, but it had something to do with me trying to keep a cow from dying. There is so much more to it, but I am almost positive that this dream was because of the aforementioned conversation. Hahaha, so strange, so strange.
Oh reader, oh reader. I would not thrive without this. I vent to you because I have nobody else to vent to. I don't even really know who reads, reader. I don't know if anyone can interpret a word I say. But I write away...