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kunta (profile) wrote,
on 1-3-2010 at 3:06am
Current mood: cold
Music: Tv Noise
Subject: Long Time Ago
Wow kid's, its been like 3 years since I have posted a journal entry in this magical realm. I am sorry for that. But the past two years ive been involved in a pretty serious relationship that has taken most of my time. 1st and foremost, I would like to wish everyone a Happy New Year. Have you ever wondered why they say "Happy New Year" when for most people the new year brings total shit? Everyone always says, wow I hope this new year was better then the last. But most of the time it never really is. so why even say "Happy" New Year. We should start saying.. Yay.. another year we all get to live! Thanx God! I also want to say Merry Christmas to all, and that I hope everyone had a safe holiday. I worked of course, but it was slow, so it wasn't bad. Would have really enjoyed spending time with the family like the old days, but it seems that time has passed. It also seems like old habbits never die. Yes, once again, I cried as the ball dropped and this time Liz was there. Her family doesn't really "celebrate" that much when the ball drops, but its some what a big deal for me, esp since it brings what little memories I have of the past up. So a little Crown Royal, a little tears, and a little time with Liz, even though we, what it seems, are on the down slopes. Not to sure whats going on there really, it feels as if shes fallen out of love with me. I guess it was bound to happen sooner or later though right? No one seems to stay with me very long, and thus far shes the longest. Im trying to better myself as a man and as a human, and its a slow process but Im learning by the day. Ive changed so much over the years its hard to explain. but I do think Im finally turning into the man that I want to be for the rest of my life. I still have a minor dislike for people, but its only stupid people. I think if my father was still alive he would be most pleased to see what I have become and how I am matured. Oh, and my mother is still crazy for anyone still interested in that matter. She turned the big 6-0 and will finally get her retirement. I just hope she also grows up and does the right thing. I really don't want to go down that road, but if Im forced to, then I am prepared to do it. Well, enough rambling for now. Maybe I will start writting again, esp while Im at work and not busy. It actually feels good to just ramble and write again, released a lot of stress and the such.
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