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|wasteland (profile) wrote, |
on 4-1-2010 at 11:42pm
|All I want is to have a normal life. I want to do what I want to do. I want to have my own personal life. And I get made fun of for doing something I enjoy. I like going to the movies or entertainment related stuff, but I'm constantly being made fun of. I'm tired of this. I knew everything was too good to be true when I got to go to all the movie screenings. I just knew there would be something that would stop me from going from time to time. This week, I saw 1 movie. I usually watch 2-3 per week. All I want is freedom to relax. I usually never bother anyone anyway. This is not a very good spring break for me. I kind of wished it was over because I'm not happy. Next week is school and I have that test to take. I didn't even get to meet up with my fellow classmates to study.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't alive, so I won't have any emotions. I want to have normal feelings like everyone else, but I find myself suppressing those feelings all the time. When I talk about love, people go, "Aaaawwww." Well, those are my true feelings. If I want to love someone, I'll only love one guy. People don't seem to believe me. I'm just that type of person. If I love someone, I'll only love one person.
People who understand me are usually strangers too. When they're strangers, they're not always there. People are good to me though. They listen and care what I have to say.