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|xelferdarkx (profile) wrote, |
on 5-13-2011 at 4:52am
|Subject: Well then
|Who would have thought that she would be first to think about having fun. I am really thrown off by this. Its her life now so I should be happy right? There are so many hidden lines in why she even would say that, or maybe not, maybe I am just being the conceded asshat that i am. I'm not one to judge others. Maybe its time that i back out completely and let her be on her own. I don't know. I want to think that it doesn't matter what is actually going on any more. Ever since i saw the last entry, I can't stop thinking about the downfall that I have caused. Its a very heavy burden. Its a lot to take in. I think about it even though i try to convince myself not to my breath get shortened. I should have probably made this post private cause only anger will come out of it, but that's why I created this journal in the first place, to relieve my mind when it already has so much on it.