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|valoth (profile) wrote, |
on 10-4-2011 at 12:51am
|Subject: Skip Town
|She really has a knack for flaking out. Seriously. She didnt tell me a time tonight. She offered to get back to me tomorrow on it. So, this is the 2nd time shes blown off a deadline of need to know.
She wanted to know if I would be mad. Ya. I would be.
-I got work off during the busy season on a week I probably could have taken overtime hours on.
- I have this huge issue of what "we" are....if "we" "are"
- This would be the 2nd flip out just before a visit
- 2nd girl that I get a fucked up relation with over long distance
-- after promising myself I wouldnt do this again!
- Wanting me/Wanting me a friend/Asking for more of me/Not being there for me in the way I need afterwords
Seriously Ill flip if she doesnt come. Ill straight out link her this damn emo spread and go full tilt on her about it. This is my stress. This is what youve done with my head. And its only whats being captured for minutes at a time on here.
Ill wall myself off from her to clam my feeling up. I might come back to talk to her. I might not. I certainly wont let myself open back up again to her even if I cannot wall myself.
Ill back off and do less for her. Ill be around less. Ill not try to be there fro her.
This is what shes doing to me. Tearing me apart.