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|srsbsnsrunner (profile) wrote, |
on 4-6-2014 at 4:21pm
|Subject: this is really difficult.
|Lately I feel like I've been having more difficult days than good days. For a few weeks I was doing really, really well and then it came crashing down and now I just feel stagnate. Apathetic really. Which is scary to me.
I don't feel passionate about many things anymore. Part of me just doesn't want to be bothered with any of it. Annoying as that is to me because I'm not used to being like this. It's not laziness that I feel, it's just this inability to care.
Maybe I'm not trying enough, I don't know. The only thing that I've felt passionate about lately is Top Gear. Which is silly but learning about cars is this whole new world for me. I've always been interested but this is different.
My love of cooking has gone, my love of running and triathlon training is falling apart.
I don't feel anything!
I would rather feel sad, mad or insanely happy right now.
I guess I should put more effort into my life and then maybe I won't feel so depressed. I decided to move away from Facebook because I think that makes me more depressed. The internet in general is probably the worst invention ever.
I have a problem and it's starting to scare me.