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|robbingnovember (profile) wrote, |
on 1-2-2016 at 7:14pm
|Subject: I won't cut fresh flowers for you
|I'm glad it is 2016, but it turns out a change in year does not come with a complete metamorphosis. I'm still the same person! Luckily, one concrete change is occurring this year with my job. PHEW. HALLELUJAH! If nothing else, that is significant. As for my love life.. I don't fucking know. i'm sitting here freaking out because I think Kenan is going to break it off with me. He asked me to "meet up" tomorrow. WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?! I totally blame myself. I have not taken any of the lessons I have learned into this relationship. I haven't said how I feel at all and I have been a complete mean basket case. I feel like I am waiting for my execution. I don't know if I am ever going to get this right... I really don't. Plus, I'm being even more crazy by secretly thinking I am still in love with Jeff even though he seems to be in another relationship. I guess I prefer to pine in secret. I can't deal with this Kenan thing I can't believe I ever went out with him. He is too entrenched in my social circle.
Plus, the whole Daniel thing.. I give up. I'm subdued. Second day of 2016!!! WOOOOOO. I gotta find a way to get my shit together for real.