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|koalalady (profile) wrote, |
on 7-5-2016 at 8:41am
|Current mood: rejuvenated
Music: Vallis Alps
Subject: back in black
|We traveled home from NC all day yesterday. Made it home safely; it was something like a 10-hour drive, and thankfully we didn't hit much holiday traffic and managed to outride the storms in WV.
I love my city. Sitting on the balcony last night, I could see six or seven different fireworks sets going on all around, one that was pretty close to our building. I always wanted to live in a place with a view for stuff like that. I never dreamed I'd end up here, but like I said...the perspective is good. And I'm so lucky to have S, who supports literally everything I do or want to try. In fact, just leaving everything, all of this, would be more all-or-nothing thinking...it is possible to have your cake and eat it too in this 21st century world. And I'm giving myself permission to just live, damnit.
I used to think that I needed to play my cards just right in order to get what I wanted. Like you only get one deal, and that's it. And yeah, I took a small buyout. Mitigating my chances. I'm not a gambler, and I don't like to play hardball.
"If you don't like what they're saying, change the conversation."
And now I'm ready to try again. Let's give this another go.