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goodbye (profile) wrote,
on 8-2-2018 at 12:14am
Having an anxiety attack... I was thinking I should probably tell someone. Maybe get in-touch with my counselor or tell him or her or her... But I don't want to freak anyone out, or bother anyone. I'm not really sure what to say anyways.

I feel 100% overwhelmed by life right now. I'm doing 'nothing' but the stress of the decisions and the moves I need to make ahead of me are completely immobilizing. I am anxious because I seriously feel my depression coming on again. I want to tell him but he always says he has so much he has to do and I don't want to make his life harder. I also feel like he judges me. He doesn't know why I can't just be happy. Let's see...

I have no money.
I live at home with people who are constantly judging me.
I need a job but I can't find one nor do I really want to work but I need to.
I need to make a career choice that could influence the rest of my life and I don't know what I want to do and I don't know what the best decision is.
I feel like he doesn't really love me because he is so focused on his own life and doesn't care about being part of mine really.
Friends aren't really invested anymore. They don't ever contact me

My depression comes in cycles where I feel wonderful and then just don't. I feel like I'm going a little off the rails. I don't know how to handle it anymore. I feel like I'm going insane.
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