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on 01-31-05 at 2:41pm
|Sorry it took so long to reply.....lack of internet for quite some time
Ok Andrea…yes…..for your information….i never said I knew you better than you know yourself. We’ve been through the fact that I don’t know who you are anymore already. But, whether you have the ability to admit it or not, which obviously you don’t, logical thinking would show that since you became an psycho bitch God freak, you got a “new lifestyle”, with that new lifestyle, the “wall” was built between us, so, if you look back you would see that YOUR RELIGION is, in fact, the wall between us, and is the reason why we aren’t friends anymore. Its not that hard to figure out, unless, of course, God told you to forget common sense.
Figures that you would take the Buddha thing to such a literal level….when I said you were exactly like the Buddhists, obviously I didn’t mean they have the same personality as you and shop and the same store as you, you’ve already made it clear ‘no one is like you’. Again, if you use common sense you would see my point….Buddhists believe that their God is the ONLY god and that their religion is right over all others….which is exactly what you said about God and the Christian religion…thus making your views on your religion exactly like the Buddhists and their views on their religion.
As for the Prophecy thing…you a complete idiot, and down right a crazy person if you think that people with the ability to predict events in the future get all their views from God because they worship him. There are thousands of people in the world who can predict events in the future…and im sure only 3 out of 10 of them believe in God. Look at Nostrodamus…He was neither a God or a Christian….but he found ways to predict a lot of things…and from what I can remember….more of HIS predictions came true than the Bible’s. Tony made a perfect point about the Bible. It could have very well been written by some whacko. The bible wasn’t written by God or Jesus…it was supposedly written by people who had encounters with him and by his decipals…but there’s no proof of that. They probly had some kind of super drug along time ago and some nut job took them and started ‘seeing things’ for all we know. Look at what all the crazy’s do when they hear god telling them to do things. All I’ve ever heard about is people killing their children because god told them to. The people who wrote the bible were probly just as crazy as them. You’re getting too deep into something you really have no clue about. None of us do. And you of all people do not have any proof, what-so-ever, that your religion is right over all others, or even right at all.
Satan does not talk to everyone. Satan has influences in this world, but they aren’t verbal conversations. And trust me…there’s no demon on my shoulder telling me to write all this about you…im doing it all on my own. Unlike you who copies things from the bible and claims them for your own. And incase you don’t know what im talking about…ill tell you. You said “do not doubt me. I love you. I will always love you. But know that it is gods desire that I love you….when my human ways say I should disown you as you have done to me.” Hmmm….that’s strange…every other time you ran out of ideas and took things from the bible, you said it was from the bible. But not this time…why not? Couldn’t think of anything clever and didn’t think I would figure it out? Pathetic.
The only thing that I am ‘broken’ about, is the fact that I lost my best friend to some 2nd rate cult in Wisconsin. I will admit, I never, ever thought that was coming. But I guess I should have expected the unexpected. But then again, I thought you were smart enough not to get into something like that. But anyway, I am not any more broken without god. In fact, I would be less broken if he wasn’t involved in our relationship. Incase you didn’t notice, its him and the religion his groupies made up that is making me broken. Looks like your all turned around.
Ok, im into the point of reading your replies on this thing, and thinking that you just might be the stupidest person alive. I KNOW there’s a difference between the Biblical Opinions and the laws of today. Im not that stupid. A five year old probly knows that already.
Who besides me thinks your worshiping paper? Well maybe not literally praying over a piece of paper….but a lot of people think that your going a little over the top with this. I mean, you living your life by someone else’s word….and its not even Gods word…it’s the word of some strange man who is dead and gone now, who was probly all messed up in the head. THAT to me is a little freaky.
You have a lot of friends…ok…well your cult groupies don’t count because you are all being brainwashed to like each other. The boyfriend thing I will give you, he seems like a great guy and im glad you found someone who actually likes you for you and not for what’s under your jeans….unless of course, he goes to your church cult thingy…then he doesn’t count either. But….you family…HAHA……now that one got me slapping my knee. Even I know that your family treats you like shit….your dad beat you….there’s that point blank….and you mom treats you like a slave. You used to tell me all the time about how much you hated it there and about how horrible they treated you and about how bad you wanted to come back but the only reason you didn’t is because you didn’t want to hurt your moms feelings. Even when you didn’t live there you would always tell me about how your mom hated you and how you never wanted to see her again and how she blew you off all the time to go hang out at the bar with her friends. But if you changed your mind that much about her and she “suddenly” because so nice and sweet and perfect…..that’s even more proof that you are all in a cult. People don’t just change as fast as you and your family supposedly did. Its too fake.
You are seriously insane if you think that our friendship was nothing but us feeding off each others evilness…are you retarded….WE WERENT EVIL!!!!!! We did nothing close to evil…we mouthed off to teachers, skipped school once, drank, swore, and stayed out late occasionally. That isn’t evil….that is teenage girls being teenage girls. Its not my fault that you got high all the time and were sexually impure. If I had known that you were doing drugs, I would have helped you stop. And you know that. Nothing bad would be happening anymore. You would have stopped drinking when I stopped drinking, you would have stopped doing drugs because I would have made you, and then you wouldn’t be depressed. Things would be just fine if you were still here. The whole “being suicidal” thing was just a phase that our entire class went through in 8th and 9th grade. People wanted to be depressed because it was the new fad. All we ever wanted back then was attention, so we figured if we cut ourselves and left marks all over ourselves then people would pay attention to us and care about our lives. But we weren’t ever really depressed. I almost think depression is just some made up thing someone thought of so all the losers like we were could get more attention. And don’t even say that you really were depressed just because you were prescribed Prozac…the only reason you got prescribed that is because your dad said so. And if it wasn’t your dad, then it was you wanting to have a reason to be on drugs. But you cannot seriously look back on our friendship….on the 2 years that we were completely inseparable and say that there wasn’t really a relationship. That’s some crazy cult your in if they teach you that past friendships are bad, demonic things. You can really think that it wasn’t fun. I know, your going to say “No actually I really didn’t think it was fun” but that’s just your cult talking. That’s not the real you….the real you is gone, so I’ve learned to not take anything you say to me to heart. There is nobody there in crappy Wisconsin who will ever love you as much as I did. You might think there are because that’s what your being trained to think, but I know you cant help it, and if you could just break free from what those people are doing to you, you would notice that what your doing is ruining the fun life you used to have. You know that we were everything to each other. Whenever you had a problem, the only person you could or did call was me. I remember back when I first found out about what your dad was doing to you, and you called me once around 11:30pm, and another time after midnight, and I argued with my dad and got in trouble so I could talk to you and be there for you, and I talked him into going to pick you up in the middle of the night if you needed us to. You always helped me through any problem I had. I didn’t have anybody in 8th grade, and I relied on you to help me through everything. You and I were much, much more than best friends. I couldn’t imagine how bad my life would have been if you and I never got to know each other. I just want you to know that as mad as I am at you…I will always keep everything personal you ever told me to myself…and I hope you can respect me and yourself to do the same for me.
I know this is a horrible thing for me to say, but its how I feel… I would almost rather that you were dead then for you to be the way you are now. I think it would hurt less if you were dead and gone forever rather than you still being here but refusing to come back to the way you were and refusing to believe that you are being trapped in something bad that isn’t letting you be yourself ever again.
Its not just me that thinks your in a cult either. And I don’t really think it….I am almost 100% sure that you are in one. And a lot of other people think so. The only people who don’t mind me saying names is me, Tony, my mom, and Tony’s mom. But there are about 4 or 5 others that I’ve talked to and they think so too. There are people in this school who are very, very good Christians, and who have been living the Christian religion A LOT longer than you have, who think you are in a cult. I don’t even have to tell those people that I think your in one…I just tell them the way you are acting and the things you are saying and, no lie, every single one of them say to me “Well, there are actually a lot of cults in Wisconsin, and most of the time people don’t even realize that they are getting in one, and it really sounds like she is in one of them.” Or people tell me that the way you are acting isn’t good at all and that you will probly snap someday and go crazy.
Ok…you think IM the one who needs to step back and look at myself?? I know exactly who I am…it seems to me that you are the one who needs to step back and look at yourself. You are the one out of the 2 of us that has changed….so don’t you think I would know myself a little bit better than you know yourself? (why did I even ask that question….of course your going to disagree) You may think that you know yourself completely…but you really don’t. you don’t even know yourself anymore. You aren’t even the same person. Its like saying you know someone completely when you just met them an hour ago. You completely changed yourself and the way you are, you are being untrue to yourself…so you’re the one who needs to step back and take a look at yourself.
From the way you write certain things, it almost seems like you still want to sound like a bad ass…. “I snuck out to parties with whichever boyfriend I had”….YOU HAD 2 BOYFRIENDS!!! You make yourself come off as a whore. Unless of course you lied to me about that, and you had other boyfriends besides Al and Alex. And the truck you “stole” was your dad’s….which doesn’t count. You make yourself seem like the girl whose life was worse than anyone’s and then you got saved by the grace of god….bull shit. You weren’t a bad kid at all, and you sure as hell weren’t the devil’s best friend.
Alright…onto the part where I come off as a complete bitch…im sorry…but you deserve it after writing what you wrote…..
This tsunami thing…wow….after reading that…I was too pissed off for any words. But I managed to think of some. Are you seriously THAT stupid?!?! You really think that their god just let them die?? You’re a fucking retard!! Lets think of it this way…say you were outside in a field somewhere praying, and all of a sudden a tornado started and picked you up right off the ground….do you really think that just because you worship the supposedly “right” god that he would save you?? It doesn’t matter what god those people in the tsunami…they would have dies anyway. That was something that was un-avoidable. There were children and elderly people and all sorts of people who died in the tsunami….did they all deserve to die too just because they worshiped the wrong god?!?! I cant believe you would sink so low to say that people died because they worshiped the wrong god. You’re the biggest fucking bitch for saying that….and I personally think your stupid as hell.
Along with the fact of you being a stupid bitch…you are also the biggest hypocrite I think I’ve ever met. You said “Why would I think I am more holy than any other person” But looking back on other things you wrote to me you said “You and I are in 2 totally different places in this religion…there is no way you can say you are just as religious as me without it being a lie” Hmm…sounds a little bit like you were saying you were more holy than me. I guess you better take time to get your lies straight before you write to me again.
Just so you know, you may think your spreading God’s word…but you really aren’t. In fact, talking to you and seeing the ways that god has changed you had sadly made me less religious and made me want to believe that there actually isn’t any specific higher power. The way you are acting is making me want to have god in my life less. And its not just me that you’ve changed for the worse as far as this religion thing. Looks like you failed.
Im also very glad that me replying to you and arguing with you is making me happy, because im not planning on stopping anytime soon. It just makes me feel better knowing that all this writing isn’t going to waste. At least your getting positive feelings from it. Also another seemingly hypocritical statement…. You said it makes you happy when I argue or disagree with you or whatever…but then you say that god helps you through that time of sorrow…?? So are you happy or are you sad?? I cant really tell.
Basically, what you are saying about the Christian religion is that anyone who isn’t a Christian is doomed to hell. That’s just as bad as being racist. Its like saying, “anyone who is black needs to die” Its exactly the same…except in this situation it would be called prejudice….that’s all you are…is a prejudice bitch. You are prejudice against everyone who believes something different from you.
So…since the person you’ve become is someone I’ve grown to hate…do me a favor….go back to your cult…..and drink the punch.