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Aaron (profile) wrote,
on 1-10-2004 at 12:16pm
Current mood: Suicidal/hungry/ I want to cry...I love her so muc
Music: That's what I get
Subject: The last wordsa God ever spoke to me.
Yes...that's it. You're just a frightened little boy. you'll sit at this computer and bawl your eyes out while listening to your depressing music. you loser. look at you. You're so pathetic. Just kill yourself. No one will really care. They're all better off without you in the way of everything. Yes...let her grow. Let her suffer and love and marry him...but you see? you already know what will happen? you see it, don't you? so you fight, you don't let yourself die or wither. you fight to save her. you sit, everynight, alone, crying cutting screaming biting...fearing hearing burning drinking...drinkning your own blood as it falls from your eyes...eyes that have no tears left to cry...so they bleed. Do you prefer it with salt? no...you like it sweet, metallic. fresh from your vains...or even better, the vains of someone else. a foreign delicacy.something new. you sick life-sucker, you wretched broken demon. you disgusting disgrace, you fallen angel. suffer! forever I damn you! die...broken...forsaken...pain.....


yeah, pain...."you are never truely free until you have lost everything"....If that truely is the case, my life redefines "freedom".
mmm....Helium....yummy.
lol, Pat's voice is all fucked up....
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independenttruckergrl

01-10-04 8:13pm

I love you.

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Aaron

Re:, 01-31-04 10:38am

did it ever occur to you that the personyou love...the person you knew, has been dead for over six-hundred and fifty days (do the math ;) )

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independenttruckergrl

Re: Re:, 01-31-04 1:13pm

ooo!! ooo!!! I did it!
it's 1.7 years..or 21.5 months...
..I think I just made the connection..


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independenttruckergrl

Re: Re: Re:, 02-05-04 7:23pm

nevermind...you said it had nothing to do with me...

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independenttruckergrl

Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-22-04 12:28am

wait...it does..

it only makes since that way.

Im sorry.

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independenttruckergrl

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 07-22-04 4:07pm

Your not ever never ever never going to read this...
well...I don't think anyway..

so why should it matter what I say?

You scared poor Kristen half to death when you bit her. hehehehe.

your silly.
but I love you anyway.

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independenttruckergrl

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 07-27-04 11:48pm

Im sorry I scare you.
Im sorry I care too much.
Im sorry Im jealous.
Im sorry I even started this.
Im sorry I made you suffer.
Im sorry that I even exist.
Im sorry...
that I love you.

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independenttruckergrl

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 08-25-04 10:23pm

Im sorry I gave off hate vibes.
Im sorry I got so emotional.
Im sorry Im sorry.
Im sorry that Laura is mad at you.
Im sorry I even got my head into this mess.
Im sorry you think I have problems.
Im sorry that I still love you.


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independenttruckergrl

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 09-02-04 9:42pm

I'm sorry I never apoligized.
I'm sorry I'm the enemy.
I'm sorry I stressed you out.
I'm sorry that I changed.
I'm sorry I hurt you.
I'm sorry I'm so selfish.
I'm sorry I'm so clingly.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.

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independenttruckergrl

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 09-12-04 9:09pm

I'm sorry I even loved you.

That was the biggest mistake I have made ever.


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independenttruckergrl

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 02-17-05 12:15am

Actually, it wasn't.
It showed me something.


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independenttruckergrl

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 04-21-05 11:02pm

Well, this thing died.

I love you.

Even if you choose not to believe it.

And, you should answer when I call.


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shroudofrain

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 08-05-05 11:35am

I'm sorry that I was acting emo.


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independenttruckergrl

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 08-05-05 11:35am

oops.

Kalie is sorry, not Patrick.

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independenttruckergrl

Re: Re:, 08-06-05 8:51pm

wait.. I'm pretty sure that's Aaron typing.

ooooh.. I'm so glad you're gone...

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independenttruckergrl

Re: Re: Re:, 06-28-06 12:06pm

You know what?

I'm not sorry anymore.

Yeah, you heard me.

All those sorry's don't count for anything because I take them back!

Every single one of them.

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shroudofrain

01-30-04 1:29am

im sorry but i sents a little motable personality disorter going on here... or is it bipolar disorter?
first you tell yourself to kill yourself and then you laugh because my voice is fucked up! excuse my french but WHAT THE HELL?????!!!!!!!!!!!!

i would give a fuck if you died... id probably kill myself if you did so. i couldnt life with myself if you killed yourself man! you know how much i care about you dude! and are you going to do that to tori? are you going to leave her here to suffer? she doesnt hate you you know! she still cares about you. just not in the way she did. she would be devastated just as much as i would if you killed yourself! think about what the fuck you are doing before you actuly do it.

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