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| AnnaLeBelle (profile) wrote, on 3-16-2004 at 1:06pm | |
| Current mood: cynical Music: Her Ghost in the Fog-CoF Subject: Fuck it. |
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| You know.. after 4 successful monthes of non-cutting, I thought I was actually making a come-back. That I had left that painful addiction behind, but, unfortuneately.. there are those who enjoy poking and prodding until the urge is just to great to bear. I found my old razor after an old attempt to hide it from my lusting eyes forever.. but I found it. I placed it to my wrists and thought about the events of the past few weeks. Plenty of good things, sure.. but several bad as well. The positive was almost outweighed by the negative, so what choice did I have? Well, quite a few, but I chose to take the path of blood. So, I did it knowing that everything I worked so hard for was being fucked up in the end. I feel so empty. So fake. Like I'm a lie. And maybe that's all I am. A lie. Trying to mingle in with the rest of them. Lies upon lies with sprinkles of guilt placed ontop one by one until it is unbearable. Until you just feel like the only way to be clean is to die. Guilty you're alive.. (Random ranting until I deleted it all) Anyways.. I had a fight with one of my friends and her bumfuck little buddy, Brittani. You know.. I hate how she thinks she's better than everyone else. Just cause she's in 8th grade and she has a lot of friends. She's nothing but a poser(as much as I HATE stereotyping) She's such a wanna be, trying to be all depressed and morbid like the rest of us. So what.. her dad back handed her for being a smart-mouthed little bitch? Some of us have real issues with our parents, sort of like Jocelyn and a few other people I will neglect to name. Me and Margueax are friends again, we cleared the whole thing up but Brittani is still being a stupid little bumfuck bitch. God.. I fucking hate how she thinks EVERYONE likes her and no one does >.< *more random ranting* In other news, I'm glad because my snugglypuff called me last night! (Bob..) And we talked for like an hour and his cell phone kept cutting out and I'm like.. You're cell phone's going up my ass because.. it's just pissing me off. I havea fire-breathing ass!!!!!!! BWAR!!! I hate my dad. ~Little Dark Child~ |
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Ratanatheevilkitty | 03-20-04 4:52pm O___O I didn't know asses could breathe. |
| Anonymous | IMA SNUGGLYPUFF, 03-28-04 4:55pm woo Im a snugglypuff. Fear my....snuggly puffiness? Ill be sure to call you again soon |
| Anonymous | IMA SNUGGLYPUFF, 03-28-04 4:55pm woo Im a snugglypuff. Fear my....snuggly puffiness? Ill be sure to call you again soon |