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| spinoangel (profile) wrote, on 3-28-2004 at 1:33am | |
| Music: jason wade - "you belong to me" Subject: i emptied another box of tissues |
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| i cant stop crying. this whole night. great homecoming huh? coming home to feelings of... it. just. hurts. and i cant breathe. it's so hard to control myself. let me rant. dont read this. why can't it just be happily ever after? everytime i think about it, i just can't help but sob and let the tears flow. and edgar asks me why, why do i keep stabbing myself in the heart over and over again. danielle says i need to learn not to let it hurt me. but i'm not strong enough. my heart just takes over and i wish so badly that everything just was... right. instead of every word piercing and making water run down my face. i thought that maybe if i just pretended like i could be his friend still, i'd actually be able to move on a little and at least carry on a normal conversation. but instead it leads to talk about broken hearts which brings crying. and then it leads to talk about happier times which brings crying. all i can do is lie in bed. i hope that my dreams arent as painful. im giving up on love, but it doesnt seem to be giving up on me. |
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karit_top | 03-28-04 12:01pm wow. =( you cant give up. its not something you would do. find the sun through the skies, its there, just waiting for you. <3 |
alwaysfalling | 03-28-04 1:45pm what we both need is a good dose of moulin rouge. summer needs to come. fast.
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christini | 03-28-04 5:52pm apparently ive missed something, but im putting pieces together. feel better my love. something corporate will be here in 13 days if you wish to see them <3 |