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emo414 (profile) wrote,
on 5-1-2004 at 3:51am
Current mood: crushed
Music: The Verve - Bittersweet Symphony
Subject: Gone
school is kinda crazy, i missed a week and it feels like i have so much to do, but thats because now i have on my mind the fact that i am going to miss another week of school. my grandpa died yesterday at 8:30 pm and my dad didnt tell us because my brother had to take the S.A.T.s this morning but he told us once brad got home. havent got emotional or anything yet all im worried about is calling my mom and her breaking down on the phone and the school i am missing. the funeral is on wednesday, i dont want to go i havent ever been to a funeral where the person was really really close like my grandpa. i leave on monday for ohio after we go to school and get all the work and then go downtown and get the suits that we rented. the drive up there is gonna suck with my brother and dad. not much to talk about, ill probably lay in the back seat listen to music and do beautiful homework, not really. i hate missing school, well at least so much of it. at least schools almost out though. im so scattered with my thoughts cause there so much goin through my brain and my hands are shaking and i cant type anymore so i am gonna go learn geometry i missed! oh joy. bye for now.
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Anonymous

05-01-04 11:25pm

oh god ryan...i'm so sorry. i don't know what else to tell you. i hope you know you can call me whenever you need to talk to me...if you ever need to talk to me...even though we haven't talked much lately i'm still here for you.
stay strong.

Alex

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Anonymous

everything will work out, 05-02-04 4:30pm

ryan
man everything sounds pretty fucked for ya man
but like it always did everything will work out man even when we did the craziest most fucked up shit it ALWAYS worked out
ILL see ya round

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Anonymous

From Stef, 05-02-04 8:02pm

hey hun, you know we all love you and are here for you through everything. i really dont no what to say tho, and im sorryh i cant say n e thing more that can make u feel better. i knwo nothign will make u feel better nwo xcept school letting out and knowing pple care abou tyou. and everyone does. im so sorry about thi all..it seems like everythign seems to him all at once. but it will get better../and you know it will. the first death is horrible...and the next oen doesnt get any better. but at least your gpa is at peace now..and now he can join my papa and my aunt and mals grandma and hope :) and everyoen else whos in heaven and happy. so just be prepared for a hard hard funeral. the ride there wont be too bad..the ride back will be hell. the funeral will be hell..and if you have a screwed up family liek most pple have it will suck even more, and youll feel weird cuz your such a young kid and it hits you so much worse than anyone thinks. it will get better...you will get better..your gpa is better..and dont you worry about school. two weeks left...keep up your same old grades..you can do it..call me and well study biology together...and geo too. i love you always MY FRIEND FOREVER

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vixenvocals

05-09-04 11:30am

my prayers are with you ryan. stay strong.

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