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| spinoangel (profile) wrote, on 5-3-2004 at 6:53pm | |
| Current mood: angry Music: ben jelen - "falling down" |
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| i get so angry sometimes. i have this attitude and i have no idea why. i'm like back talking to my mom and brother and i feel like crying. because they're not even being mean to me, i'm just being irritable. and nothing hurts more than when you hate yourself. and i feel that a lot today. amongst other things. the simple truth is i'm falling, falling down. and i don't wanna drag you through the bottom. then you say "sit in front of me, turn around you'll see, i'm all you'd ever want, all you'd ever need, come back into my world. you know i'm always yours." and you make so much sense when you say "don't throw this away." it's hard to know whats real when it all seems wrong. but i promise you i'll find outwhat's going on. i just need to follow the sun before i know if i'll see this another way. the simple truth is i'm falling, falling down. and i don't wanna drag you through the bottom. please forgive me now. the rain. i want to walk in it. but i'm so afraid that if i leave the house, i'll never come back. and i can't stand the feeling of being sick of life. it's just not right. my life is good. the norton is hiring me for the summer internship, i need to work out the hours though with my parents since i dont have a car. congrats to tina. so how come she's not smiling? because the mood is swinging back and forth and i'm getting so dizzy from it all. literally. headache. |
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karit_top | 05-04-04 5:43pm now i feel bad for not calling you. i was going to but then i decided to study. life is good, i know how it is, but without one desire or wanted item, it is not fun. i know how it is. i go through it now. ill call you tonight. love you and then some. |