| Add Memory | Add To Friends | |
| mizu87 (profile) wrote, on 7-11-2004 at 11:04pm | |
| Current mood: tired/achy Subject: buda |
|
| Damn.. just got back from work... this late yes.. friggin.. worked from 12 to 8 as a waitress and didn't get out till like 10:20 and the last table of 6 didn't leave until 8:30 something or later. My back is killing me. The reason why I haven't updated in a while is because the computer.. just did'nt work. Aol is fucking sucking ass ever internet.. and it wouldn't work.. Maybe it was just the computer I don't know but it is working now and I don't know for how long.. so there.. there is your reason. I came home from work yesterday, Friday, and I had to get up early today to go to the mall to buy me a new shirt because I only have 2 tight ones.. now I have 3 lol but anyway I wanted some sleep and.. brook.. .. just.. was like.. mad at me but I didn't know why (turns out he thought I was mad at either him or autum for saying something that she didn't say anything bad and yea you confused? so am i) but anyway I told him not to call late.. so.. I find myself playing mixmatch (tetris then dr. mario then tetris again) with mom till 1am something and at 2 o'clock I decided to call Brook at work. I told him to call me in 20 minutes since he was about to clock out.. I feel asleep and was woken up by the phone around 3 am (keep in mind that I'm getting up at 7:54 am) I hadn't eatten anything that day either except one piece of toast at work and a burito at home.. but yea.. I was tired and just.. worn out.. but .. anyway.. he calls and he is piss ass drunk.. i mean.. the worst ever.. and.. it scared me and I just didn't want to hang up on him.. but.. i just.. listened.. it was aweful.. he was.. acting so foolish.. god it was pathedic. But.. yea.. I can't talk about it because i'm tired and.. anyway.. the phone died over there and so he said he'd call me back in an hour.. it was already 4 fucking something close to five and I said 'no' and he's like '45? 30? 35? 20?' and I was like '20' I was not fucking gonna wait a fucking hour for his phone to recharge and.. I was tired.. so I waited 20 minutes and recharged our phone and he called. Almost got into a fight with Creg.. got a split lip at work when he got in a fight in the parking lot. .. um.. it was just fucked up. I talked to autum.. she seems cool.. but anyway.. it was 5 something when brook hung the phone up on me.. well he wasn't really listening to me.. and. someone said, a man's voice 'brook, it's time to go home BrOOK it's time to go HOME' it was because he was loud.. i mean really loud.. fucking sun was raising when i was going to sleep but.. I slept with the phone.. I was.. so worried about brook.. I mean.. he didn't even hang up the phone.. he pressed a button like a number and it beeped but didn't hang up and they asked 'did you hang up the phone?' 'yea yea' and he pressed another number to hang up again and yea.. set the phone down and i coudl hear them mumbling and shit and then some girls voice and then it hung up.. .. ... .. I just.. all the things that his friends said.. and.. just how he was acting.. it seemed.. like he was hurting so bad but didn't now how to stop himself.. .. but anyway.. got up this morning friggin and went to the mall with my $27 i had from tips from friday and all the stores in the mall were closed lol so we had to wait like 10 minutes for JC penny to open, found a shirt that said tricky kitty on it with felix the cat's head on it and liked it and tired it one along with this camo tan mini shirt (just for kicks lmao i'm a pants girl) but anyway I put it aside and wanted to go to gazooks before i made my finnal decison so I went tried on a green shirt, said ick and left after mark shook me pretty hard for not buying anything from 'his' store lol anyway went back to jc after stopping by waldens to say hi to mike and yea.. yea stopped by lady footlocker too and found these addia's white shoes with red mesh on them that i fell in love with that i think were $70. I'm bout to go get them lol (we got there at like 9 something and the stores opened at 10) so yea.. bought a belt at vanity and .. got that shirt at JC changed at simions (gas station) went to work and yea.. ... yea.. but.. yea.. ah.. mind went blank there.. well to cut it short, I made $63.60 in tips today (we had fullhouse and we was busy because of a car thing today, we were right along the burn-out strip) and yea.. got paid $20 tonight too (not tonight but monday.. maybe tomorrow) and yea.. but yea man that is good but boy am i tired. Ya'know jose? my jose? like i grew up with jose that is cute and yea.. well anyway his nephew is our new dishwasher. He is only a year younger then jose and is way fucking cute and looks kinda like jose ok a lot like him but is cuter and he was all fucking stoned when he came to work lol it was awesome he didn't talk or anyting just looks like i do he seems cool lol I heard sonny said brook nimZ when i was just walking into the kitchen so I guess carlos asked about me having a BF lol ha ha ha oh his name is charles btw.. but yea.. anyway it was fun.. real fun we didn't get out till like 10:20 (did i saw that twice?) but yea.. it was awesome.. jakeeta likes me and it's cool. There is a lot of shit to do but it's ok .. anyway.. .. when we settled down after the flood like around 1-3 i used sonny's cell and went outside and called brook before he went to work around 2:30 ... i didn't know what to say to him.. i asked him if he remembered last night and he said he did and i asked him what happened .. and he told me.. .. ah.. i could tell he wasn't happy but. he didn't apologize.. but.. i told him that there were people comming so i had to go and he said ok get back to work and.. I .. was quite and said.. 'i miss you' and he said he missed me too.. i really do miss him.. but.. anyway.. i need to get off damnit.. but umm.. I told him argh i asked if he would call and he said around 2 and I said no and he said 1 and i said no and he said 12? and I said no and he's like 10-11? and I said yea but not after and then.. i was all at fucking work got home had just missed his call and knew it would happen like that start 69nd and he was at work and he is going into DDr town to work on cars so he won't be home till i don't know and he said he'd call if he wasn't busy and i said dont' call after 12 and fuck i'm up and. fuck.. fuck.. damnit.. i juts.. want him.. to myself.. .. just help him damnit.. damnit.. ... god.. it was aweful haven't to listen to all that lastnight.. i mean i was in tears when he hung up.. ... but.. i want to get off.. it's 11:30 now.. .. Broook fuck.. damnit.. he ain't gonna call.. i know he won't.. shit.. he said he woudl'nt get messed up since he is working.. but.. .. what he thinks is messed up and totally different then what i think.. .. alot happened today and.. it was fun.. a rush.. not really a rush it was just fucking phone.. i do enjoy things i do.. whatever it is.. from shitting to picking a goddamn dirty napkin off a plate.. i like this life.. i like earth.. i dont' care for heaven right now.. Someone asked me what my favorite fruite was.. I said plums or grapes.. he picked grapes for me and this is what it said: BLACK GRAPES You are a polite person in general, but do have quick flare-ups of temper that cool down just as quickly. You enjoy beauty in all forms, including beautiful people. You are very popular because of your warm, gregarious nature. You have a zest for life, you enjoy everything you do, right from the way you dress, to your style and your day-to-day life. Your partner must share your zeal and zing for life to enjoy all you have to offer! .. Yea.. .. .. Can ya just tell me for now? BudaFalL87: ... naw.. nevermind BudaFalL87: He called me piss ass drunk this morning at 3 o'clock.. i mean.. it was aweful how he was acting.. i couldn't believe it.. it just seemed he was hurting so bad but didn't know how to stop.. didn't know how.. or what to do Ohh, I see. BudaFalL87: ... do you? Sure, ya just told me..but think about it for a moment, he was drunk..your senses are messed up when your drunk..you either become depressed..enraged..or overly joyed.. IF he was drunk and sad..nothing to worry about..best just forget it and scold the hell out of him for being drunk.. BudaFalL87: ... Sorry if that sounded a bit mean..but.hell..he was drunk...the only thing you should be worrying about is him ruining his own body before he is in his thirties. By that time he's about digging his own grave. BudaFalL87: ..... fuck.. BudaFalL87: ur right.. thanks Hm, welcome, it's just I noticed how often you say he's been calling you when he's high or drunk..and it's a bit often..and what im seeing is a good guy..but a lack of control. He listens to you, talk to him. Before you give your life to be with him consider the fact of the drinking and smoking, changing that could make things better for the both of you..him physcially..you mentally..your worked up about him being so miserable, he's partly miserable because of being drunk and high all the time. BudaFalL87: ... god.. you are awesome ya'know that? Full of yourself I bet -.-' but not really ^^ u are different .. cool.. thanks Full of myself..if you mean I hold myself in any high asteem you're right..im no different from any one else, just watch closely and think of the situation and examine it then think up a good conclusion or some thing that fits, and for this that's what I got, I just wanna make sure none of my friends get their lives ruined. .. dudes pretty awesome huh? Some good advice comes from him.. .. dang.. .. shit look at the time! Gotta go gotta go! ... love and peace! fuck you world lol Ja ne! |
|
| Post A Comment |
|
Hiei | 07-11-04 10:55pm PINEAPPLE
|
mizu87 | Re:, 07-12-04 1:04am but disappointed in your ability to show affection.
|